The Sabrina Vaughn series Set 1 Read online

  Sabrina tightened her grip on the cell for a second before snapping it shut. Something had happened. Something bad. Nothing short of disaster would have pulled the truth about Sabrina out of her grandmother.

  Thoughts of Michael caused her apprehension rise. Why had Lucy told him about her, and why would he even care? If Lucy could be persuaded to tell someone like Michael O’Shea something as important as the fact of her survival, what else had she told him?

  Finding her way downstairs to the kitchen table, Sabrina sat. Pulled her shaking hand into fists, felt angry with herself for being so afraid. The trembling crept up her arms and settled into her shoulders before inching downward until her whole body shook. She’d known this day would come. That the man who’d kidnapped her would eventually find her.

  She stared out the kitchen window, but the view was lost on her. All she could see was the dark …

  She couldn’t see—couldn’t open her eyes. The dark was absolute. No cracks of light, no pinpoints in the black to guide her way as she crawled around the room he kept her in. She couldn’t see, but she could hear and smell. Her ears and nose told her everything she knew about the place he kept her. Dripping water pinging off a metal pipe, the distant passing of an airplane overhead. The frantic scurry of rats; she could smell the unclean stench of them. Other smells surrounded her. The smell of the bucket she used as a toilet … the metallic tang of blood. Her blood. Every breath she took brought her the smell of it, and with it, the memories of what had been done to her.

  Next door, Noodles let out another series of barks. The sound of them snapped her back to reality. Blinking hard, her gaze settled on the cabinet above the coffee pot. In the back, hidden in the hand-painted mug Jason gave her for Mother’s Day when he was eight, was a prescription bottle with her name on it. Ativan—3mg PO, PRN for anxiety. Before she knew what she was doing, she was out of her seat. Reaching out, she gripped the cabinet knob with trembling fingers but stopped herself from pulling it open.

  No. Falling apart wasn’t an option and neither was relying on drugs to keep herself together. She was stronger. She wasn’t that stupid girl anymore.

  The clock display on the timered coffeemaker read just after six a.m.

  Pouring herself a cup of coffee, Sabrina carried it upstairs, in a hurry to be dressed and out the door before Val woke up. Her roommate would know right away something was going on, and she didn’t want to get into it.

  It was clear she’d get no answers from her grandmother. Luckily, she had other ways to get what she needed.

  If she hurried, she could get to work early and run his name through the computer, figure out what Michael had been up to for the past fifteen years and what it had to do with her.

  Sometimes, being a cop had its privileges.

  4

  Sabrina showered quickly, not bothering to comb out her hair before throwing it up into a damp ponytail. Afterward, she pulled on a pair of black cargo pants and a plain black T-shirt. Reaching into her nightstand, she pulled out her SIG P220 and attached the holster to her waistband. Socks and boots came next, and she sat down on the edge of her bed to lace them. The floorboard outside her bedroom door creaked, and her head snapped up. She dropped the laces of her boot and stood. Years of training dropped her hand to the SIG strapped to her hip, and she waited. Knuckles rapped softly a moment before the door was pushed open.

  “It’s me—can I come in?” Val said.

  Nodding, Sabrina dropped the hand on her hip. The movement wasn’t lost on Val. Sabrina sat back down to pull her boot laces tight, ignoring the worried glare she was getting. Val leaned against the doorframe and crossed her arms over her chest, saying nothing.

  She’d known Valerie only a handful of months before her abduction, but they’d formed a close friendship. So close that when she finally opened her eyes in the hospital, Val’s was the first face she saw. She’d taken care of Jason and Riley during her absence and the long and brutal recovery.

  She’d been a minor and the fact that the detectives investigating her case had no leads into who’d kidnapped her made her survival an easy secret to keep. As her guardian, Lucy had her case records sealed and helped her with getting her name changed. Then she let her go.

  Even though Lucy never believed the person who raped and tortured her was from Jessup, she knew there was no forcing her to come home.

  As soon as Sabrina had made a full recovery, she and the twins made the move to San Francisco with Val, who attended interior design school while Sabrina waited tables, biding her time until she was old enough to apply to the police academy.

  Most days it was easy for her to remember how much she owed her friend. Today was not one of those days.

  Boots laced and tied, she stood again and crossed the room to her closet. Reaching up, she pulled her tactical bag off the top shelf and turned to drop it on the bed. She pulled out her Kevlar vest and strapped it on. Val finally looked away. She never liked to watch her put it on.

  “What’s going on? Some nut job holding his cats hostage?” Knowing Val, she was trying for flippant but ended up sounding angry.

  “We’re doing an eight-thirty serve and search.” Her team was serving a high-profile search warrant connected to a string of bank robberies. She and the boys would take point and clear the way for the Feds to come in and do their thing.

  Her coffee was still hot, but she slammed it anyway. The search and serve was nothing she hadn’t done a hundred times, but she was going to need the blast of caffeine to get through the next few hours. This was it though—her last assignment with SWAT. She’d finally given in and transferred out. Val should’ve been doing backflips. Instead, she looked like she was about to come unglued, which meant they were about five seconds from a full-fledged fight.

  “You look like shit.”

  Right—shut your mouth, grab your gear, and leave. “I have to go.” Hefting her bag onto her shoulder, she shot a look at the clock—it was six-thirty. She had less than an hour to get downtown and behind her desk before the seven-thirty briefing. By the time they got back from serving the warrant, her partner would be there. All she needed was for him to catch her running a background check on Michael. One look over her shoulder and the questions would start flying, and she’d be stuck. If she wanted answers, she’d have to get to the station before Strickland did. She turned and headed for the door.

  “It’s starting again, isn’t it?”

  The question came out of nowhere and stopped her retreat mid-stride. “Don’t be ridiculous, Val. I’m fine.”

  “Ridiculous? I’m being ridiculous?” Valerie stared at her. “You know what’s ridiculous? That after all this time, you still feel the need to lie to me—or think you can with any degree of success.”

  “I don’t have time—”

  “How long have the nightmares been back? How long before you convince yourself he’s found you?” Val straightened and began to pace. The question was a good one. She’d been working herself there for the past few weeks, making slow and steady progress toward an inevitable breakdown.

  “I’m fine. No nightmares. No crazy paranoia. There’s nothing to worry about.”

  “You’re a liar. I heard you last night—up the stairs, down the stairs. Back and forth in the hall. How many times did you check on the kids? Four times? Five?”

  Seven. “Val—”

  “Happy birthday.” Val walked out without a goodbye.

  It was October first. Not only was it the fifteenth anniversary of her kidnapping, it was also her thirty-second birthday.

  5

  The lot was nearly empty when Sabrina arrived at the station. She scanned the cars as she pulled into an empty space. Strickland wasn’t there yet. Thank God. Aside from a few early birds straggling in to catch up on paperwork, she was alone.

  She sat down at her computer and clicked the icon linked to what she referred to as the Dirtbag Database. Typing in the name Michael O’Shea, she selected Texas from the list of states pro
vided. Within minutes, his picture popped up on her screen.

  This was the boy she remembered. Vacant gray eyes stared out at her framed by dark, unkempt hair that looked like it hadn’t been washed in weeks. Sallow skin stretched tight over a thin face. This kid wasn’t tough or angry. He was an emotional void.

  She tore her eyes away from the picture on the screen and scrolled down, scanning the list of offenses littering Michael O’Shea’s juvenile record. Loitering. Vandalism. Unlawful entry. Robbery. Assault. Each was worse than the last, culminating in a missing person report, filed by his foster mother when he was fourteen. He’d run away and stayed gone for over a year before being found and brought home.

  Continuing to scroll down, she grew more and more puzzled. It was like the second half of his story had been lost. Where was the continuing string of crimes, growing steadily worse, until it ended in felony assault or rape? Where were the adult convictions, the prison terms he must’ve served? She scrolled up the page, searching carefully for what she was sure she missed, but there was nothing. It was as if he ceased to exist.

  You’re wrong about him. He changed after Frankie was born, though most folks didn’t care to notice. He loved his sister.

  As soon as the words popped into her head, she dismissed them. Lucy was too soft-hearted. She saw the good in everyone. Even when it wasn’t there.

  The absence of arrests meant nothing except that he’d gotten better at hiding his crimes. That didn’t make him innocent; it made him smart.

  “Who’s that?”

  Minimizing the window, she turned to find her new partner standing so close she could’ve reached out and touched him. He was holding two large to-go cups, and he offered her one. It’d become tradition for the last partner in to bring the other coffee. Strickland had been bringing her coffee every day since they’d partnered up a few months ago.

  She took the cup and shook her head “No one.” Taking a drink, she churned over everything she’d ever known or possibly forgotten about Michael. His foster parents died when he was seventeen. Both had been killed in a head-on collision, leaving him and his sister, Frankie, all alone. True to form, Michael dumped her off on an aunt and uncle and took off and … he’d joined the Army. Maybe she could request his service records.

  “I thought we liked the Tillman kid for the Weston case,” he said, referring to the double homicide they were working.

  “We do. We’re still waiting on the warrant to search his apartment. It should be in by this afternoon—wait. What are you doing here?” It was way too early for her partner to be in already.

  “This is it, right? Your last day on SWAT? The last day I have to ride solo so you can go play cowboy with that troop of primates you call a team?”

  “They’re good guys.” For the most part.

  Strickland smiled. “I’m sure they are … anyway, one of us should be here in case the warrant comes in earlier than expected.” Strickland tipped his chin toward the computer screen. “Who’s the lowlife?” He wasn’t going to let it go. His tenacity was the best, worst thing about him. She took a long drink from the coffee cup and avoided making eye contact.

  “Just some punk that’s been calling Riley a lot lately. He wants to take her to homecoming.” She thought of her little sister. At sixteen, she was beautiful enough to get plenty of male attention. What would she do if Riley brought someone home like Michael O’Shea? Murder came to mind.

  Strickland gave her an odd look, followed by a boyish grin. “Please tell me you said no,” he said in a conspiratorial tone she’d watched loosen the tongue of dozens of witnesses.

  “I was trying to keep an open mind but now it’s a definite hell no,” she said, making the lie up as she went along. Hopefully all he’d seen was the picture and none of the dates attached to the arrests. Pretending to get busy with paperwork, she continued to chew on the problem. She needed probable cause to request Michael’s service records. No way could she get hold of them without raising questions. Another dead end.

  She was suddenly angry. In the space of a few hours, her carefully constructed life had spun out of control, and the lies she’d built it on were on the verge of being exposed. Taking a deep breath, she weighed her options.

  First things first, she had to figure out where Michael had been for the past fifteen years. Getting his service records through the department was out of the question, but there might be another way. Nickels, her old SWAT teammate, had been in the military, maybe he could help—

  “What’s goin’ on with you? You’re jumpy as hell.” Strickland took a seat at his landfill of a desk and kicked his feet up on its top. Papers and wrappers he didn’t seem to notice hit the floor.

  “Nothing is going on. You gonna pick that up?”

  “I need to start sneaking you decaf,” he said, barely giving the clutter a passing glance. She laughed and rubbed a hand over her face.

  “Bringing me caffeine is the only thing keeping you alive at this point.” She stood, needing to get away from Strickland until she could get herself together. He was a rockstar interrogator in a rumpled suit and a twenty-dollar haircut. His Average Joe persona disguised a brain that could pick you apart without you even knowing it.

  Her desk phone rang, and she practically dove for it.

  “This is Vaughn,” she said, but her relief was short-lived. She could practically feel the color drain from her face. It was her SWAT sergeant, Richards. He wanted to see her. Now.

  Dropping the phone in its cradle, she turned away from her desk. “Where you going?” Strickland got a good look at her face and sat up, his feet pulling a Styrofoam take-out box off the desk on their way down.

  “Richards wants to see me before the briefing.”

  “You think it’s about what happened with Sanford?” Strickland looked worried.

  She thought about Officer Steve Sanford. It was a safe bet that whatever Richards wanted to talk to her about involved him.

  A little over a month ago, her SWAT unit participated in a drug raid on a house Narco had under surveillance for months. Once the door came down, bangers and crackheads scattered like roaches. Sanford charged in, chasing his quarry into a bedroom. He grabbed the kid’s ankle while he was trying to shimmy his way under a mattress and pulled him out of hiding. When Sanford dragged him clear of the bed, the kid came up with a 9mm and got off a couple rounds.

  Hit in the chest, Sanford was knocked on his back. The kid must’ve realized he was wearing Kevlar because he stepped up on him, intent on finishing him off with a round to the head.

  She saw it all happen, kneeling in the doorway, handcuffing her catch. Sure she wouldn’t be fast enough to stop what she knew was about to happen, she pulled her gun and fired. The kid went down, dead before he even hit the floor.

  She knew Richards’s call was about what happened with Sanford, but it was more than that; it was about what she’d failed to do as a result. Psych services were mandatory for officer-involved shootings within thirty days of the incident. The raid had happened five weeks ago, and she’d failed to attend her sessions.

  “I don’t know. He didn’t say.” She evaded his question, not wanting to admit she was more than likely going to be taken off active duty. She left her desk and headed downstairs, in the general direction of Richards’s office.

  Finding Nickels and asking him to help her track down Michael’s records was more important than getting yelled at over her lack of follow-through. She briefly considered ignoring the call, but only for a moment.

  Ignoring Richards would only make things worse. If she got fired, she’d have zero resources in tracking Michael down. Her best bet was to go see Richards and throw herself on her sword, make excuses he would know were bullshit, but he might accept them if they sounded plausible enough. Hopefully she’d be able to get out of his office without a suspension around her neck. After that she’d find Nickels and ask for his help in figuring out what Michael O’Shea wanted from her after all these years.

 
; 6

  Michael tossed the binoculars on the bed and started to pace the length of his rented room. He’d watched her get ready for work, strap on her guns, and rush out the door, intent—he was sure—on finding him. He wasn’t worried though. Finding him would be impossible. Even for her.

  Shooting a glance at the unopened bottle of Glenfiddich on the dresser, he felt a twinge, wanting nothing more than to drown himself in it. He’d been carrying the same bottle with him for over a year now. He hadn’t drunk a single drop. Not since the day Lucy told him the truth about her granddaughter.

  He’d come home the moment he’d gotten the call from his Aunt Gina—Mikey, you’ve got to come home. Frankie’s missing—just dropped his life and hopped on a plane. After nearly three weeks of round-the-clock search parties and sleepless nights waiting for the phone to ring, they found her. She was in the woods along a stretch of Route 80, propped against a tree not more than ten yards from the road. It was a spot they’d searched a dozen times.

  After that, he’d stayed drunk for days. Every morning he woke with a black hole in the center of his chest growing bigger by the second, an eight-man demolition crew inside his head seemingly intent on tearing his shit down from the inside out, and a liver that begged for mercy. He’d reach for the bottle and start drinking.

  Days stretched into a week before the call came from the coroner, telling him Frankie’s body would be released for burial. He muttered a thank you and snapped his cell in half. Frankie was all he’d had left, and she was gone. Her funeral was the next day, and he was seriously considering eating a bullet afterward. Until then he planned to keep drinking.

  The banging grew louder and louder, until he was sure one of those hammer jockeys inside his head busted through his skull. No, wait. Someone was at the door. He didn’t even bother to peel his face off the mattress. “No housekeeping,” he shouted but the sound was muffled by the mouthful of sheets he was chewing on. He turned his face to the side. “Go away.” The external banging stopped. The internal hammering picked up the pace—his punishment for yelling so close to his own ears. Swiping the near-empty bottle off the nightstand, he finished it off. He managed to roll himself over to eyeball its replacement on the dresser.